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ramblings of a teenage girl

Enjoy these pictures while i am gone. =)
HAHA.xD
I will miss you ivan.










Last week monday till wednesday while everyone else having their exam i went representing PBSM with a few other member's to do first aid .
At first i thought it would be like nice.
Turn out no FAN !!
OUTDOOR .
Worse than our sukan stadium.
But it was kinda fun seeing people playing hand ball.

Exam sucks like nobody's business.
I hate it .
I think i am gonna fail like 4 subjects out of 9 !! =(
Balvir's gonna kill me .
20 marks for add maths .
Chemistry ?? ( for sure worse. )

Stupid teacher.
Gossiping about me .
Within teachers.!!
NAAA, i do not want to tell her name here.
But she is just behaving like a kid.
Gossiping about students SWT !.

Alyssa is sad and moody today . =(
Just dont know why.
I dont know what to do .
Confuse ?

I still have till tomorrow to make my decision.
What would my answer be ?
I am just so confuse.
Would i just give up everything ?
And just be like everyone else ?

What am i suppose to do ?
My heart tells me not.
But my brain tells me too.
Which one should i follow.
Which is the right decision.
3 days in hell or give up everything i had started ?

Boikot.
I am just afraid that last minute everyone back off.
If it were to left me and you ?
only both of us?
Totally doom
Teacher would blast us off. i guess even worse then our very own prefect.
I mean why are they just so arrogant.
Must force people do things that we do not wanna do ?
It is as bad as putting a knife at your throat forcing you but this one is just even bad , it just make you do so much thinking making my mood go swing swing.
PMS + this + that + sick = really really bad bad mood. =(
I feel like just leaving everything down.
But , what would my dad say ?
I dont mind spending the rest of my school life in white .
But , what would people, teachers think ?
Would i feel abnormal ?
Just out of the sudden .
I better make a decision
Which would be a wise choice.
Exam is coming and so much things in my head spinning.
Just too much.

I hate the way it is right now.
And i wanna fix everything up.
Just everything up .
any better idea ?

I feel like going skating right now.
Maybe friday ?

My cousin came for the weekends.
She is a person that i look up to .
I seldom see her cause she is studying medicine in Singapore.

So it was really great to meet her again after 2 years.
We chat talked
She gave me a book and asked me to read it .
It is Pure Womanhood.
At first i was thinking whether to read this book.
Then i read it,
And knew alot of things.

So i asked Ivan ,
Am i your forever girl , or am i for now girl ?
he answered the 1st one , but i would not know how true it is .
in fact nobody does.
It would be only between ivan and god whom knows.
all i know is i trust and love him
and thats all i have in me to give him.
and i guess thats the best.
If i were to answer i would answer the 1st one too ivan . =)

Somehow this book gave me a big impact on what's love all about.
Well, now i know how to differenciate a good or bad guy.
A guy that you can fall in love to or not.
I believe in myself,
Eu cren en min mesmo,
Eu non especifiquei persoa incorrecto.
Eu quero estar contigo mentres podemos estar xuntos.
E espera que a resposta sería demasiado longa.
Eu quero un final feliz contigo Ivan.
Isto é porque no fondo eu amo vostede.
Non podo aparecer no seu rostro ollar melancólico,
Pero Lembre sempre no fondo, foi sempre vostede que é o máis importante.

En calquera cousa que eu,
Vostede sería o primeiro a saber, e eu prometer a vostede que Ivan.
Espera que estás lendo isto agora.
Porque quero estar con vostede en cada segundo da miña vida.
Tu que podemos loitar por veces,
Pero eu sei, e eu confío en ti, Ivan o cara que é para min.

Me Recorde que o tempo nos chat no teléfono.
Conversas sobre estar xuntos por moito tempo.
Mesmo se estamos a outra escola,
Nin país diferente.
Meu corazón está sempre contigo, nunca para outros.
Ivan eu te amo sempre.
Eu espera que Sinto da mesma maneira que fago.
Dado que é o meu verdadeiro corazón, o meu sincero para a nosa relación.
Ficaríamos meia por ano no próximo mes,
E eu cant esperar por ela.
Just cant,
Quere pasar o día,
Nun restaurante ou un lugar onde nós havent sido.
Só estrela en cada un dos outros para toda a hora.
haha.xD
Estou a pensar moito.
Pero realmente eu te amo moito moito.
Sempre e cada vez máis, Ivan

Beatrice curse really worked. =(
Arghh.
I was suppose to be out from school today by masa ketiga .
Ended up i cant go back home due to the sickness in my house.
It started with my dad then now its my mom .
They are both sick .

Did not bring my books.
That sucks
As it was like Pn. Siti's book i did not bring .
Surprisingly she did not hit me but just nagging . nananana.whatever.
Sherlina decided not to go and pass the surat ketidakhadiran to Pn Kamisah but to Pn Saamah .
So i agreed, at least Pn Saamah does not really raise her voice.
So i when , passing up the letter.
Surprisingly she called my mom O.O !!
Thinking my mom would not know.
But too bad laa.
My mom not only did not pick up but asked me to act as her .
Cause she sick kan so it's great.
Just imagine is she were to be at work.
I wouldn't even be back to tell her that i wrote that letter and hand it out cause pn saamah actually called at 12.40 thats like a minute after i hand in my letter. ==

I am actually suppose to be out on a date but ended up having a date with reena .
It's not too bad. But naaa. His still the 1st one in my heart . haha.xD
His now in camp .
Dunno doing what.
Wondering would he even be sleeping.
Cause Scout camp like kinda more than usual cause need to cook by yourself.
Solute them can cook without utensil . =)
Waiting for you to come back .
Love you

Really big thanks to Yvonne Yee Lyn Chew and Lim for following to buy a skateboard.

I am really addicted to skateboarding.
Thought i still scared of the falling part but naaa who cares.
Got a skateboard today.
It's a sharing thing between me and my brother.
Cause not enough money.
I do not want spending the rest of the month suffering with money .
Bought it from cool element.
It's black and white.
Wheels are black.

I fell once today with my board .
That was because i was going on a down slope and i turn kindaa late.
So i ended up holding a car and my leg split. =.=!!
Ouch . But at least it wasnt a big impact on my butt. haha.xD

Picture's uploading soon .

Happy Birthday Derik ..=)
Althought we fight most of the time but you would always be my brother.
So yeaa. Have a good 13 birthday ..=)
Celebrated in Alexis.
Got a blouse.=)
We are both in white .ahaha.xD
Arent we just adorable in the picture. xD





Judson's hair
Made me laugh and laugh
He named it Arrow Dynamic
But Mr.B named it Hairy Dynamic.
Muahahaha.xD
Actually he cut his own hair thats why his cyburn is so handsome looking ahaha.xD
Really cool
He might just start a new hair stlye cut for the boys haha.xD

Mr.B was just totally tired.
And lookie what did he do .!!


Alyssa.
Agree's with Lim
I miss those days when were together in a class.
Miss those days when one of us get scolding and will back them up.
Miss those days when we kacau teacher's one by one.
Miss those days when were called as the monkeys .
Miss those days when will gossip all day long.
Miss those days where would just do anything for the sake of the humour.
Miss those days when were playing true or dare and would do really stupid stuff.
I remembered once that leslie had to kiss alif or is it the other way round.
I remembered Amelia gotta hug Pn Arina.
And of course
Genting.=)

Just love you guys so much.=)

Today is really a great;awesome day.
I spend really long hours with my love one.
Ate in SpringField Town Cafe.
Two thumbs up for this restaurant.
The price is cheap compare to feeling or others.
The food is also ten times nicer.
And the best part is , no tax !!

So i ate Chicken Chop - RM9 with a free soft drink
Cheese Cake-RM2 *really nice*

The place over there is not really like a cafe its more to a friendly restaurant.
Which there is a instrument zone for you to play,
A game place
A reading place
And a place where you can watch all of your fav tv series there's plenty of different movies.
So its kinda nice place if you wanna go and relax.

Its a two different thing compared to Feeling.

Skateboarding.
And yeaa.
Big thanks to Boon Hoe, Yee Lyn , Gurmeet,Yvonne,Haziq.
They taught me how to skate.
Ahaha.xD
I think i am in love in skating.
It's nice.
But of course not when you fall.
=)

Well. the previous post was all about before evening .
I *hearts* april fool.
So of course i got fooled by my very own lao gong.
He told me that his not going to follow me to tuition for add maths cause it's gonna be tiring.
So of course i said okay.
But of course felt abit down.
It really felt real as there was nothing that made it unreal.

So I went to tuition like any ordinary days.
I taught i was late , but ended up my add maths teacher was at the back of me. =)
So i was lucky.
Went in to the class took my books out and the next thing i know is Ivan was there.

My expression was of course i was touch,
I never taught of scolding him because i was too happy.
It's really great.

I love you so much.

Today in school.
Was the most boring day ever.
As it was raptai for hari anugerah.
Well my class was only left with i think 10 of us.
So teachers did not teach.
Then when school came to and end of the day.
Dhirenn and Chong the *peanut* lady
Put my beg inward out.
==... Of course if you know me i would for sure do the same thing back.
But i didn't cause it was Dhirenn.
Instead of that i took his beg and put it in the girls toilet.
Yeaaa, i know its lame
But when it comes to Dhirenn although how lame it is it would still be funny
Life actually gets better with him around the class.
His like the so call BIG PAPA..
Really great way to end my day . =)
Thanks Big Papa..
Hahahah.xD

I went to school with actually a moody mood.
I seriously do not know why am i so moody nowadays.
When Ivan asked me , me myself also cant answer that question myself.

So..
Today was April Fool day.
Which i did not really plan to fool anybody.
But when it comes to Dhirenn.
Naaa,,, everything changes.
So of course his like the one that i fool most.
His just great.
But of course i got fooled back from him.
That is the consequences i needed to face and already knew.

Ye meeting was ahemm ahemm.
well, i never blame anyone.
If i were to blame someone
I'll just blame myself for not being a good leader.
Well, i'll work hard.

P.s I love you.

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