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ramblings of a teenage girl

So i went to Mad Monkeyz today .
I did not climb.
I was just sitting on the black sofa watching people climbing and thinking.
I tell myself that i would be able to climb again someday.
But another mind of me was telling.
My leg would not be the same as last time anymore.
My leg would not have the srenght anymore.
Plus it is my right leg.
What am i ever gonna do ?

As i spend lots of time finding what is the best solution for my leg.
Ended up with nothing completely ZERO.
that what fears me.
Waiting 6 weeks is not it.
I need to wait more then that.
I need to get my muscles back.
After 6 weeks my leg would actually just be out of the cast but still like a jelly fish.
Just you can see physically but inside its nothing.
I have no idea when would it heal.
HAISH .
or maybe ,
i should never be in that place.
But i really love that place.
Naaa..
I think its time for me to let go . and maybe go to a gym instead.
I dont know.
Will. just let time decide.
Leaving me no choice but time...
I guess for me not to go that place will be the hardest thing on EARTH .
But i got no choice.
Till i build my muscle.
God ,,
Please make time fly faster.
Waiting like this gonna put me into a dillema instead ...
You can just imagine a active person who cant even stay put on a chair for an hour to break her leg.
Its like the worst thing you ever will wish for .
Well.
I wanna go sleep .
Nightz.

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i think they call it freedom of speech

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