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ramblings of a teenage girl

i am just too stressed out.
Oh god.
Pleaseee faster let time pass by.
Whenever at home i start thinking...
Sighh.
Faster i need someone to admire on.


pictures are still not deleted. sigh.sigh.
Pictures are still in my purse.

Too stress out.
Add maths if i can even get more than 10 i will laugh out loud.
Barely even touch the paper.
Only do 1 question. LOLS.
Who cares.
L C C wants to give me personal tuition on maths because i scored badly for maths .
Another problem to another.
Pls dont give me anymore problems.
It is already more than enough for now.

Not mentioning .
I failed my music test again.
Well.
I did not tell anybody .
Sigh. Knew it like on sunday.
Feel like crying right now.
Is like my 3rd time failing.

Shoot myself lar.
Seriously this time i'll just shoot myself.

Ended last year with you .
And going to end this year without you .

We had been together so long.
That my heart aches everytime i think about it .
Till now i have not delete or throw any pictures of ours.
As i did not dare even open my images in my phone.
I guess i need my friends to do it.

We started as a couple alot of similarities.
But months after months we have even more different intrest.
You and your comp and me and my rocks.
2 different world.
I realize.
I tried playing computer games but it is just not in my genes.
You tried rock climbing it is not your thing.

Everytime i taught of breaking up with you .
And now it is true.
Out of the sudden i felt like i lost someone.
Someone to lean on,
to depend on.
Every time i look at my phone.
No messages will appear.
Nobody to wake me up in the morning or wish me goodnight.
Feels lonely everytime i am at home.
Everytime i leave madmonkeyz or with my friends.
All the pain will just rush back into my heart.
But as promised to YL ,
I will not do it i guess only she knows what i meant.

Nevermind i guess life goes on.
Although you are the hardest to leave or forget .
I wish you get the happiness you want in your life.
thats all i can say.

So if i have been moody or angry bare with me . =)
wait till i get my smile back .

went to school today after 2 days of being at home.
total boredom.
found out that most people are sick too.
Hmmm.
Maybe is the sick festival lols..
More likely to be the weather nowadays.

Well,
Of course let me introduce you to me scary friends.
Which i hope i just faster recover so that i can dump it away.



you see.
is not that nice after all being sick . =.=!!

Well.
E-lane is now in Penang .
Eu Jin tomorrow.
to E-lane i hope you enjoy your delicious food in Penang as when you come back it is INTENSIVE work out for you and of course me. =)
to Eu Jin . muahahahah hope what we exercise today is enough so that you dont grow fat and lose all of your abs. then i will be seating here laughing at you . =)
Peace.
For the rest of us still in KL.
lets just enjoy KL.
SMILE it helps brighten up your day .

I've never felt this way before,
Its all brand new to me,
My head is spinning,
I cant breathe,
You are all I see.

I long for you to notice me,
I wish you'd ask me out,
So this is what first love is like,
And what a crush is all about.

Another poem i like. =)

I have felt this way before, and so do you .

Well.
It is actually for Ms B to read . hahah.xD
do you feel this way too ?
cause you are the first person i taught of after reading it.
i hope you like it

A friend will not talk bad about you,
And will never lie.

Friends are always there for you,
If you need to cry.

Friends will be there for you,
through thick or through thin.

When the rest of the world walks out on you,
A friend will walk in.

A poem that i like to dedicated to all of my friends.

Friends are always important in my life . =)
so . hello there my friend, and you always be my friend.
I appreciate you for being my friend.
Thanks for making my day.

Well.
There's been alot going on nowadays.
Alot of shocking stuffs. * that i actually got like know it almost the last*
Let's see what is new.
Oh ya !!
As everyone can see my cast is out.
Yeahh.
Now i can kick some ass.
I did not sleep in class last week on wednesday if not mistaken or thursday i forgotten.
Well. It's lame but it is something new. hahah.
I finally used our school toilet after 1 1/2 months.
Yeahh. Believe it.
I also finally cycled a bike.
Although i still dont really like riding because its just so tiring for my legs.
Ahemm. Reena hahah.
Dont cycle too much not good for your reproductive system. MUAHAHAHAA.
Not to mention.
My new piano teacher.
Oh gosh. Its like night mare.
She is like a young teacher but with a grandma mood.
Mumbles lots like hell .
I can die like in an hour time in her class.
I am not more getting the way me and my old teacher's used to be.
Fun, we can just talk about anything.
Big HUGE sigh.
My relationship is getting better .
And thats great. =)
I love it and i love you . ( to those whom help me . hahah. you know who you are. lol. )
This is what my pals told me in tuition.
They were whispering at the back of me and i was like WHAT ? * the usual me*
So then MS P said i got something to tell you
then MS R said Alyssa take a deep breath dont shout dont freak out.
And my heart was like thinking is there a mouse under my chair ?
Because if there is i would shout till the building falls.
Then MS R,S,P said ....................................... * which is not to be known*
And i was like what ??
who cares.
you made me panic and all you wanted to say is that . LMAO.
Anyways . to those who dont understand nvm.
Let's see what else is new.
i dont think there is anymore.
Okay.
Bye for now.
Alyssa.

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